Positive Correlation

I think you could use "positive correlation" when referring to life right? You grow older you gain more, and so on and so forth. Today I haven't been as productive as I was yesterday but I got my shoes in so I'm more jolly about clothes than I am about education. My middle name is semi-materialistic and the monster is building up again.

I guess you could say that spoiling a child doesn't do them any good, and it probably doesn't, but when you're placed into the situation where you can get anything you want... man does it feel quite nice. English class was chill today, I'm bringing in books and magazines to read in that class since I have a feeling we'll be doing chill reading often.

Hm... my mind isn't exactly filled with things to blurt out, but what I can say is that I am craving toast with butter. I don't have toast though... fkjghlfkjh SCREW LOW FOOD SUPPLY.

Last First

day of highschool // anything with a number used to symbolize which level of education I'm recieving.

I'm somewhat shocked of how weird it will be when I don't walk the halls of Walnut High School anymore just because I know I won't be there in a couple of months. Well, I guess you could say today went fairly well. My classes are really chill and so are the teachers. I'm really appreciative that the people in the classes I'm in are all so open, it feels nice. Sadly, I don't have any FA people in any of my classes, but that isn't anything new because it's like that every year :[. At least this gives me an opportunity to get to know the people around me that I haven't gotten the chance to. My first period and my fifth period are going to be my favorites, and maybe even fourth just because bahhh I could go on and on ranting about how great my classes are. :) I didn't see all that I wanted to see today but I have tomorrow and I honestly think it's going to be awkward!

My order from urbanoutfitters is coming in tomorrow. I can't wait for my brown sandals :D. Okay byebye.

So Long

Farewell, my summers officially over. To summarize it all up in one word, I'd have to say "memorable". This summer I've come to the realization that sometimes, friends are only there for you because they feel obliged and I don't want someone to be forced into a friendship. I've also come to realize that well... people are bitches that have no clue in life but to fall under the stereotype. People let you down, you don't understand what happens, but in the end you just have to accept it all. People change, sometimes they change for the better but majority of the time its for the worst.

Well, tomorrow will be my last first day of highschool. I feel as though I should make this year count the most. I hereby state that my number one goal this year is to hella live it up because come college, I know that I probably won't have the most time for the people that mean the most to me. I probably won't even come in contact with my acquaintances, and I don't think I'll be stepping on the grounds of Walnut High School for a while. I'm feeling a little nostalgic and its not that great. Its okay, I've had my turn right? life goes on and I'm going to go with it.

Old.

I think I've come to my senses. I'm fine and right now everything I'm doing is pretty logical, or so I think. I haven't been out this whole week unless I had to be. I've been exercising daily and getting good amounts of sleep. I've been accomplishing alot too.

So I remember when I wondered why it was that I acted like I was so little and why I wish I could have stayed that way forever. Well, its not so bad knowing everything and I guess when you get older you tend to accept change more easily because you tend to experience it frequently. The more to refuse to accept the harder it is for you to adapt in the long run. I'm okay with myself right now, I just hope I don't go through my quarter-life crisis and realize that I have much to live for and I'm not exactly living it up right now. I am though, I'm as healthy as can be, and I still have friends I can rely on even though I do miss out on their daily trips to another friends house. Its alright, I think I'll be okay. I'm ready for senior year and I'm definitely ready to grow up. <3

vindicated I am...

Only the most sore person on planet Earth right now. August 27, at 12 a.m. I plan to sleep on my driveway just so I could see, with my own two eyes, two moons. Excitement is building up inside of me and I don't know whether I should jump for joy or play a really cool song. Aha.

Highlight of my day:
Marina said that I was getting lighter. I honestly wish I were pale with green eyes and black hair... and maybe a pointy nose while I'm at it.

Then again I realize that God makes us all look different for a reason. What's the point of wanting something else when you already have a beautiful set of your own body parts and features. I guess that's what is so beautiful about human beings we're all so different but the same. No one is identical! :)

Well... my eyes are a bit on the weary side so I guess I'll sleep well tonight!

6:30 a.m. & Garbage

Last night, I had the best sleep ever. Sadly, my Mother woke me up at 6:30 or earlier to tell me she was worried that the trashman wasn't going to dump out all of our trash so I had to follow him and talk to him. There I was sitting half-awake on my doorstep, waiting for a huge truck full of trash to come by so I could share with him my mother's worry. Until today, I never realized how loud their cars were. Right as the truck came in clear view of my driveway, I ran to it... but apparently I'm only one of the shortest things on Earth so its not like they could see me. I tried to yell "EXCUSE ME" but as most of you know, I have a puny voice that only a squirrel could hear. I then realized that it wasn't just my black trashcan that was still full... but my whole block's. My irritable behavior rose and I insisted on calling my mom to blame her for waking me up and being so ignorant. I guess she just wanted to have a clean, trash-less house. Up to now I'm still pretty angry because I have no plans for the day and sleeping makes the day go faster. I've already completed all my exercising and cleaning for the day.

The internet is boring, and my eyes hurt. I'm going to dance to Shiny Toy Guns. Enjoy yourselves.

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I'M OVER MY INSOMNIA

My pathetic attempt to talk to Antony allowed me to feel sleepy and at the moment my eyes feel slightly droopy. It's great, and I feel really great too. Today was kindof rocky but hey, eff it thug life? I don't know. Well I think I'll lay in bed. Goodnight :)