Minus a Friend

I woke up early this morning to a warm room. Luckily, my blinds were closed so it kept it about 3 degrees cooler.

So remember how I said I was learning to accept somethings and thats all life is? It really is, after this past week I've realized that some of the strongest friendships feel like they're non-existent. Its okay I guess because well... its not like he/she realizes it anyways. Maybe its just me, but whatever because I don't even care anymore. I really do, its denial and I just want to get over it. It makes me sad when I feel like I don't matter anymore and that maybe some sort of infatuation takes over their lives and completely forget, but what are friends for? No matter how much you abandon them they should stay there, be happy for you, and when they come to the realization, be happy that you still have them. I feel like I'm becoming less and less of a friend, but I don't know... that's cool too. I miss Zaldy, Kevin, and Justin. Maybe its my fault for not making an effort to talk to them because I assume everything will fall back into place whenever I want it too. It isn't burgerking, I can't have it my way all the time.

Being mature certainly has its pros, but I don't know. I don't care. kdjfghksdljfhg...