highschool

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and I'm not making up some bullshit writing to try to sound somewhat profound, eloquent, or of intellect. In all honesty, I'm really sad. I feel like theres a deep gaping hole just getting deeper as the change the numbers of our senior count down. I feel depressed, I feel nervous, and I feel like time just went to fast and I don't think I've moved on with it. I've regressed, I know it. All the maturing and "accepting" I seemed to have gained over the summer has disappeared. I'm not ready to move on with my life and all of these sappy farewells don't make me feel any better. Closure isn't great, I don't want to feel like a chapter in my life is closing. I don't want to move on to big and better things because really the big and better things are just bundles of responsibility I do not want to deal with. I wanted to leave highschool for the fact that I needed people to clique with. Now that I think deeper into it, I'm not ready to step out of my comfort zone.

WOW. AMAZING. I'M NOT PISSED OFF AT ALL RIGHT NOW.
I SO DO NOT WANT TO BLOW UP AND LEAVE.
I DO THINK LIFE IS FAIR.

YES I FUCKING LOVE LIFE AND ALL OF THE JUSTICE IN IT.
I LOVE WORKING AND NOT GETTING CREDIT FOR IT.
COOOOOOL... FUCK MY PARENTS.