(: "so... what are you going to do?!"

if its not going to hurt me, and if i have nothing to lose... why should i care?


ive been talked to about this particular situation... or well... more like i bring up a situation asking if its "weird" and in return i get jaw drops and "what are you doing?" after receiving such negative feedback, i'm not exactly sure what to think about things. So here I am at the library, stumped on my english essay because i'm not sure how i'm supposed to feel. thing is, is that i know i'm completely over you, and there is no chance i would ever try to rekindle an old flame. i know you probably have no intention of doing so, and thats why i'm fine with it... its just that i hope you don't think i still like you or that its "just that easy" for you to come back. truth is, is that i really don't care about you anymore... neither do i care for you. i guess that is why i'm so confused. am i supposed to care that you're tryna hang out with me? am i supposed to care that... idk you know? its just weird. (: then again, i find everything weird and unpleasing.

on a lighter note:
i'm very happy with my life. i met my sister's friends last night and talked till around 4 in the morning and drove back to school. they agreed to take me to a baseball game and pay for my ticket... because they think that the dogers are better than the angels. i really beg to differ. other than that... (: i have a new room and i'm about to decorate it... riighhhhhhttttttt....


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