i dreamed a dream

So this morning I woke up, sweaty, and really light headed... actually I woke up feeling different again. I slept really late and my dreams were a little unusual I guess you could say. I dreamt of college life and how it would be. It then made me really nostalgic and sad thinking of leaving "home". I don't know why, but I feel like I'm going to miss home made meals and the slightly warm feeling I get when I see my parents come home. That sounds gay, and I never thought I would feel this way but I guess man, I guess.

Moving along with my life I had hopes of thinking people were actually good on the inside. I then realized everyone is pretty fucked up in one way or another. Another thing, I hate you. That's really sad and I never thought I would ever feel this strongly, but I do.

Last night after having a pleasant talk with Ralp & Sean I came to the conclusion that my large double, 17 units, 2 jobs, & a long distance relationship feel so comforting now. To get away from everything else. I'll finally be with people who know what they want in life, who have some sort of sense of direction, as well as fucking I don't know but it sure is a hell of a lot better than what I'm getting at home.

I totally took my post onto a different direction. Well on a lighter note before I get filled w/ a gripload of angst, today was delightful. I spent most of my day looking around ikea.com ; target.com ; & urbanoutfitters.com for cutesy rugs and dorm furniture and what not. I'm so ready to leave, and when I leave I'll be happy if I don't come back.

Then again, I'll be really happy when I come back to see just the few that I love and adore. Those few include Jocey, Ralp, and Sean. There are more but I feel like those three have played a huge role in my life in taming my anger as well as bringing me back down to a calmer state. I love them.

Note To Self:
Don't let bitches make you feel like shit... cause they're bitches. They don't deserve that gratification. The end.