& I still can't shake

that feeling I get whenever her name is brought up or when her name appears on your phone. I can't stand it, its like someone is squeezing my lower back trying to make me explode when I don't want to.

Its sad that you have to consult me to talk to her (though it makes me feel alot better).

I don't understand why it bugs me so much. It bugs me so much that it makes me think of the question or the unthinkable act. I'm such a jealous person, actually I'm not. It's only when it comes to her. This sucks. I don't even mean to be either. I'm trying to be the best person I can be, but the mind is way more powerful than I think. Shits CRAZY! haha.

This sucks. Especially since I have no control over my emotions, I think I'd enjoy the sight of seeing her head mashed into a banana cream pie. I'm horrible. I concluded last night that the only reason why I get unreasonably jealous is because dude... I do dumb things. For instance... how about we not talk about it.

shake it off... gotta do whats best for me baby and that means I gotta shake you off.

SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT haha.

I cuss alot in this thing, good thing no one reads it. I wish they had that private option. It's sucks that they don't. hmph.