ugh.

There are so many thoughts in my head right now, but the one pissing me off the most is why everything seems to be so complicating. I'm not even kidding anymore. I dislike the fact that well... I don't even know what I want to major in. I dislike the fact that I don't even know where my relationship is heading. I dislike the fact that I don't know what the hell is going on between my parents, because to be completely honest... they're making it difficult to adjust. Do I live with one, do I live with both. I don't know, its not like I can flip a coin a see. I hate how I think one thing, but my hearts telling me another. I hate how my brain and heart conflict. I hate how I hate everything... even though I don't.

what the hell do I want?

Apparently I can't even answer that because all that's laid out on the table make it so hard for me to choose. The more I put up with all the complications the more complex all the complications become and in all honesty, its not what I need. Its like brain overload. Life is just throwing all these fastballs at me and I have no breaks to step on. Whatever... I should go and die now.

I thought I was mature... I'm not.